Yes. It is time to listen to the music; the truth about self-love and what can come out of it. First, we had to “Face the Music,” and now we are going to “Listen” to it, take it all in and embrace it. Just like self-hate, this won’t be my common blog post theme. It will be different from my usual post. It may or may not get emotional and real so bare with me.
Self-love can literally be the best thing a person can have. I feel like it’s about self-care in a sense because you care about yourself or when you begin to appreciate and love your self more. To me, it’s a mental thing. Meaning it’s more than just taking bubble baths and getting a manicure and pedicure, but we will get into that shortly. I feel like it has a lot to do with how you view yourself and the environment you surround yourself with. I wouldn’t say we are born with self-love, but I do feel as though you learn to grow into it in a sense. So today we are going to walk through another garden of music, and this time we are going to listen to the truth about self-love and acknowledge what its really about.
Self-love. Hmmmmm… I like how that sounds; don’t you? When you hear the phrase “self-love” what comes to mind? For me, the first thing that comes to my mind is “selfish” and “embracing who I am.” Yes. Yes, I did just say selfish. *giggles * but not rudely and disrespectfully. Just in the way of putting myself first before others when it comes to my mental, physical, emotional and spiritual health. In all that, just learning to embrace who I am as an individual and accepting everything about me including my flaws. I must say… it feels kind of good to say “self-love” because once upon a time I was never able to say aloud “I love myself.” I know I can’t speak for many, but I think self-love is something everyone should have and experience in their lives. Despite the flaws, you “think” you have. I know for me I didn’t just wake up one day and started loving myself how I should of years ago, it took me a long time to get here with this whole self-love thing and being one complete to my infinite self. If you read my previous blog post about Self-Hate, you would understand why I said that. Like I said before, society and social media handles had a lot to do with how I saw myself. However, I won’t speak about that; only the positive.
Nowadays I have noticed a massive change in the social media platforms when it comes to self-love and embracing who you are as a person. Back then it was all about being slim and healthy, and if you weren’t a certain size, you weren’t accepted. Well… at least that’s how it seemed to me growing up; especially on commercials and reality shows. However, I’ve noticed a change in that. “Thank God!!!” because I even thought at one point to be beautiful I had to be slim but either which way that wasn’t going to happen I LOVE MY THICKNESS, and I love food (the good and bad). I remember a few years back when Dove came out with the “Real Beauty Campaign,” and my first thought was “Holy Shit.” I was so excited and happy for them to have such a powerful campaign that beauty is more than just looking like a super modal and always looking perfect. After that beautiful campaign, I noticed more plus-size models coming out, persons who had rare skin conditions and even those who had rare diseases. I was so amazed to see such a powerful movement encourage more persons to help expand and prove that the beauty industry is more than just being perfect. It's more than that; it's about being perfectly imperfect about your flaws and showing them off to the world. After all of that… I started to think to myself “Maybe there isn’t anything wrong with me, I am beautiful just the way I am, and there is more to beauty than just physical appearance.”
My self-love started to develop a little more when I noticed more women and men in the beauty industry were being shown with their “imperfect bodies” and I loved it. I started seeing persons with cellulite, stretch marks, acne and so much more; it made me realize that it is absolutely normal to have these beautiful faults on our body. Now I can’t speak for all when I say this but, I know I started to embrace these faults of my own. I realized that
Once you find beauty in yourself, it doesn’t matter what a person may say to you that may come across disrespectful. Especially those fools who try to say you are “ugly” or “you aren’t worthy or worth it” because deep down inside you know you are beautiful/ handsome and 100% worthy. As for them, they are simply full of shit. “I said what I said.”
I remember being in elementary school and all my classmates use to tease me about my forehead and how huge it was. Every other day I would come home upset and all snotty because my feelings were hurt by being disrespected. One day my mum sat me down to the computer, and she searched up this super modal named “Tyra Banks.” I looked at my mom and asked her why we are looking at pictures of this woman. My mom then pointed out to me and said look at her forehead… its huge just like yours. Then I realized where this conversation was going; my mother wasn’t showing the picture to tease me or anything but showing me how Tyra Banks embraces her forehead. Magically, later that afternoon I saw the modal on television speaking about her forehead and how a person use to tease her about it. How she tried to cover it up until one day she decided to embrace it and show it off. After seeing all of that, I started to embrace my HUGE forehead. Not just because Tyra Banks did but I realized this may actually be one of my favorite features plus it gets a lot of attention and kisses. *giggles * gosh there was this time I think I was in eleventh grade and my friend and I were teasing each other, and out of nowhere she says to me “Shut up with your airport runway size forehead.” I’ve never laughed so hard in my life. Now if that were me in elementary school, I would have been rolling on the floor with tears but because I learned to love and embrace my forehead it was hella funny. Now to listen to the music.
Like I’ve said in my previous post I just learned to love myself and I mean all of me. It took a while for me to get here, but I finally made it. At one point in time, I couldn’t stand to look at myself in the mirror, I was depressed and not to mention I had my occasional thoughts of suicide. However, I started praying, and things just started to get better. I began to do a lot of Self-care and loving things for myself. I don’t mean doing the necessary surface kind of self-care things such as bubble baths, spa day, hair salon, etc. I mean those things are nice, but it’s deeper than that. I started saying affirmations, attending church, mini workouts; I even started reading. Fun fact I never liked reading, but I sure love a good poetry book. See, things like that are excellent; discovering new things about yourself that you love. That is what self-love and self-care are about. Learning new things and “Blooming” more into yourself. Surround yourself with people who genuinely love you and care about you. Keep your environment green and clean. So if that means finding another job that isn’t stressing the hell out of you and actually appreciates your hard work, dedication, sacrifice and paying you well for it; then do it. Don’t worry they will find a replacement in a matter of days. All of this helped me to love myself, and learn to accept me for me. *wipes tear * it wasn’t always easy for me, but I had to make an effort because I know I have a purpose here on this earth I may not know what it is but I sure as hell have an idea of what it could be. “Don’t ask me what it is yet.” I must say it really feels good to open up about things like these and share my story. Can you tell that I am “Blooming”? This is the music I want you guys to listen to; since you’ve faced it. This is my story and my truth, and I am sure damn proud.
So… yeah, this is what self-love can do to a person or learning to have it. This experience has taught me so much about life and about myself. I am so grateful that I was able to share this story with you all my fellow audience and readers. I wasn’t going to say this, but I have too. I am actually quite happy I only had thoughts of suicide and didn’t actually do it. If I did, I feel as though I would have only disappointed the real Odette, that was dying to burst into the world and show persons that there are people are genuinely happy with their life and can learn to survive the depression and the dark clouds that can consume us when we are most vulnerable. *sucks up snot * for those people who did take their own lives because of bullying and depression; I wish you didn’t because you are essential in this world and some people care about you. So, may your beautiful souls rest in peace. I have said this before, and I will repeat it, I do not judge anyone on this blog but if you feel if you would love yourself if you change your appearance or anything of that sort then do it. Just make sure that is something you want and ask your self; I’m I doing this for me? Or am I doing this to get accepted by society?
Self-love helps to motivate you to be your BEST self. Meaning that you are going to do more and want more for yourself. My Blooming Flowers, I want you to look at yourself and while you are doing this, think about all that you are. Do not focus on what you aren't. Don't even think about what people want you to be. Think about you and who you are, learn to LOVE who you are as one. Look at every part of your body and think of the positive uses of it. Your hands have wiped someone's tears; your eyes have seen such beauty of this earth. Your body is yours and no one else’s, take good care of it PLEASE!!!! Your body loves you, and you should love your body. Love it up and accept your imperfections. Every time you find a flaw about yourself, even if its mental or physical, find two positives about yourself. It does not matter what it is.
Smile!!!!! Thank You.